Sunday, March 16, 2014

A Fresh Perspective

This job is hard. 

Being a caregiver to 10 hurting and broken boys is hard. There are days when it feels like everything is chaos and nothing turns out right. Two of my kids got suspended this week, one got in two different fights at school, one stayed home from school with a stomach bug, one is so close to going to live with family forever but was told once again that he has to wait, one dumped a whole trash can on a freshly mopped floor and another threw a shoe at me and said more curse words than I can count. Most days, we're a mess. 

Recently I've been struggling with the reality that on this side of heaven, sometimes things are just going to be a mess. I've been struggling to accept that fact and I've been feeling really frustrated by it. 

What I've forgotten recently is that God is still God even when, from my perspective, everything is a disaster. I have desperately needed a new perspective. I've needed, like it says in Romans 12:2, to be transformed by the renewing of my mind

A friend recently shared with me Habakkuk 3:16-19 and I've decided to make it part of my new perspective. I want to renew and train my mind to recognize and remember that God is my strength and God is good and I have a reason to be joyful, always.  

Habakkuk 3:16-19 says... 
Yet I will wait patiently for the day of calamity
    to come on the nation invading us.
Though the fig tree does not bud
    and there are no grapes on the vines,
though the olive crop fails
    and the fields produce no food,
though there are no sheep in the pen
    and no cattle in the stalls,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord,    I will be joyful in God my Savior.
The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
    he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,
    he enables me to tread on the heights.


So here we go, I'm going to begin renewing my mind and renewing my perspective, I redesigned my blog just for the occasion and I hope to actually regularly post on here sharing with you all the joy and the peace God has been showing me amongst the chaos.