Monday, June 28, 2010

Our Boys :)

Want to meet my children? (well all except for 2 who were on a field trip that day)

Check out Caroline's blog for some pictures :)

Sunday, June 27, 2010

A few quick stories.

Sorry it's been awhile since I have updated and I don't really have time at the moment to delve into any of my deep thoughts about all that I'm experiencing. However, I will share some quick stories...

1. Today I cleaned 5 bathrooms... I highly dislike cleaning bathrooms... this is what I do for Jesus.

2. Today I also learned that "going number two" in spanish means the same thing as "going number two" in English.

3. I spent 7 hours sorting donations yesterday... it was rough... I'm the donation princess this summer, I even have a crown :)

4. This week Isai called me up into his bed and asked me to tell him a story of me, my mom and my dad... I almost just started crying right there... My heart is being broken over and over again for these children.

5. One day last week I woke up dressed 14 children sent them off to school, went to another children's home dug holes all day and then went back and bathed my 14 children and put them to bed... that was a long day.

This is my life in Mexico :)

Friday, June 18, 2010

He's leading them out.

This week was crazy once again, I was spent a few days here at the property going out with groups and then Tuesday moved back into Casa Hogar Douglas. There is so much going on in my head and heart with my time there. I'm learning so much about myself, about the Lord and his heart for the orphan child. I'm learning on a deeper level what it actually means to be an orphan and just so much other stuff that I don't even have time to put into words, but I would love to talk about. But what I can say now and what I do know for sure is that one of God's promises to orphans is to lead them out... and he is doing just that. He is using us to lavish them with love to show them that they are loved and that they are important and that they matter, not because we love them but because GOD loves them and through his transforming love, we can see their hearts changing. Don't get me wrong, there is still so much pain, so much hurt, so much anger in the hearts of these children, but walls are slowly coming down and it's beautiful. One of our toughest boys who usually doesn't show affection or laugh or smile much has been giving hugs, laughing and even asked to sit on my lap last night. The Lord is in the business of restoring and redeeming lives and I LOVE him for that. I feel incredibly honored to be a part of this process even if it's only for a short time in their lives, it matters because it's an opportunity to change eternity.

P.S. The biggest victory of the week... we used my ipod to play classical music while they went to bed and it worked like a charm!! Caroline and I just sat there and relished in the victory as they all climbed in bed and fell asleep... classical music... who knew??

Friday, June 11, 2010

So I was a mommy to 14 children.

Well it's the end of week one and this is the first moment I have had to actually sit down and reflect on my life this past week. If I tried to write this out in like an organized story form I would never fit it all in, but I'll try to give you some highlights.

This week I lived at Casa Hogar Douglas which is a children's home here in Monterrey, Mexico. They recently lost one of their workers leaving the dorm of 14, 2-7 year old boys without a caretaker, so to fill the gaps me, Caroline (a back2back staff member) and 2 other interns moved in and became their new caretakers, hence the title "So I was a mommy to 14 children". We were responsible for taking care of them 24 hours a day, so here are some the things that were typically part of my day.

- getting up every day at 5:55
- dressing kids for school
- doing 55 kids laundry
- changing diapers
- feeding children
- helping with homework
- being told I was both a rat and the most beautiful woman in the world
- breaking up fights
- finding stolen toys
- watching Ice Age 2 eight times,
- speaking Spanish
- bathing children
- catching children who are bathing in their clothes
- brushing teeth
- teaching children to say por favor and gracias
- putting kids to bed

In a brief list that was my week. It was one of the hardest weeks of my life. We were busy every moment of the day and it was nearly impossible to find a second to ourselves. I have gained such an appreciation for what these caregivers do day in and day out for years at a time.

Some things that I loved about the week were, getting to know the kids on a personal level, asking them how school was and rubbing their backs until they fall asleep in bed.

I'm now back at the property enjoying some much needed rest and relaxation, then I'll be working with groups for a few days before I move back to Douglas Tuesday night for the rest of next week. Which I'm happy about because I miss my kids, for as much as they stress me out and for as tired as I am, I can't wait to be back.

So I think that's all I have for tonight, I'm way to sleepy to think in either English or Spanish tonight, but I'll leave you with one of my favorite scenarios from yesterday...

Adrian: Who is a rat? Say who!
Me: Who?
Adrian: You!!
Me: oh... that makes me sad :(
(Boys laughing and whispering)
Adrian: Who is the most attractive girl?
Me: Who?
Adrian: You!!
Me: Oh wow, who?
Jose: Who is the most beautiful woman?
Me: Who?
Jose: You!!
Me: Thank you, I love you so much.

I LOVE these children, and so does Jesus and that's why I'm here.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

4 hours.

I have to wake up in 4 hours to leave for the airport. I still have not finished packing... I probably should have started earlier. oops.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010


As I said in my first post, this is my third summer interning with Back2Back. I had an amazing experience the first summer and that really just left me hungry for more, so I applied again for last summer and ended up spending two months there, one as a nanny and one as an intern. And after that I just felt like I wasn't finished there, so this summer I will be an intern for both months. Now I don't want this post to make it seem like I'm not excited, and maybe it won't be your stereotypical "wooo I'm leaving in 3 days post" but it is what it is and I'm just going to be completely honest. This summer is going to be different. And if you know me at all then you know, typically I really dislike when things are different. So knowing this has been a struggle for me. I know this summer is going to be different for a lot of reasons and some that I'm sure I don't even see coming. I feel like the Lord has been preparing me for this, yet at the same time I just have this instinctive feeling of anxiety and discomfort when I think about it. It's weird, I haven't been eagerly counting down the past 100 days like in the past, instead I've just been living life not really realizing June was sneaking up on me. Maybe I've gotten too comfortable there ... maybe a little discomfort will do me some good. God always knows what he's doing and his plans are always best. I just have to try to remember that, again and again I have seen the Lord grows me most in the times where I feel like I am pretty much terrified overwhelmed and waayyyy outside my comfort zone. So yes, things are going to be different this summer, but I am going to pray and I would love for you to join me in praying that I will embrace my discomfort and that through that the Lord will use me to love the orphan, serve the needy and advance his kingdom. Because that's what it's all about. Not me.

But... on a lighter note. 3 days!

And I thought I would give you a picture of what I will wake up to every morning and look at while I eat my toast and frosted flakes.
beautiful isn't it?